ROAD OF UNCERTAINTY

Right now, my future really looks uncertain. Though this new journey is something that I asked for, fought for, competed for and worked hard for, the triumph is still to be had. Countless agonizing headaches and unbearable frustrations are expected. But as always, I remain positive but cautious.

Today was my last day at work...somehow, I still can't say 'my previous work'. I have been in this area for almost ten years now, and some people I have worked with since I don't know when...forever. It was hard leaving the place. I am not certain whether I'll be coming back. I wish, financially, I won't. But emotionally, there is that feeling of security when I am amongst these people, and I will be longing for that refuge and comfort.

My comfort zone had been well protected since I last had a major issue in life. But two of my bosses pushed me out of it and made me more audacious. All of a sudden, here, I found myself braving the outside world on my own...without them, and out of that comfort zone (on the nail).

Deep within, I know it's a rusty nail. Something I have to get out of. But somehow I really found it hard to leave work today because I know that whatever I will be doing here in my next journey, I will be doing my damnedest best...And there remains a possibility that I might not be coming back.

Today, I went against the tradition. When someone leaves, the staffs usually give a morning tea for everyone. I refused to do this because I owe a lot to my colleagues. I, instead put in a morning tea for everyone ( hey, that was with labor and love staying up all night cooking!!!) as my thanks to everyone for being nice, kind and respectful to me as a person, an alien(being of a different racial background) and a team leader.

But hey, who got surprised? Me! I can't believe they would give me a yellow and white gold earrings. Hayley, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. I will treasure and guard this with my life, I swear. Apart from that, they also gave me a plant(well, someone knows me too well...), two crystal candle holders, scented candles and SCRATCHIES!!!!!! Someone truly knows me, it's scary!

To everyone who's put in for this and to everyone who were really good to me....THANK YOU VERY MUCH! Nikki, Lynette, Peter, Melanie, Robyn, Alyshia, Marg (hope everything's OK darling), Brenda, Matthew, Liz(THE MAGICIAN, I know sweetheart), Erin-lee, Sue, Vicki, Leanne, Hazel, Yvonne, Janine and to my mentors and to my praised gurus...Cheryl O (thank you boss), James (thank you ex-boss), Harry (thank you for teaching me so many things.)...........Thank you all for making me feel, I do belong. I will be missing you all. But for as long as we are all in Darwin, then there will always be a 50/50 chance of bumping into each other somewhere. So, see you all soon.

As I've said, I might be back next month...............hope not though.